Worried... But Hopeful

As a mother, I worry. Even when others around me say there's nothing much to be worried about.

This past Tuesday afternoon, Delaney had an appointment at the Heart and Vascular Institute to have a heart echo done. I was assured by the pediatrician (after the chest xray was done) that this was pretty much just to make sure nothing was hidden. (We're still trying to figure out her tachypnea - rapid breathing.) After playing phone tag yesterday, I finally was able to get the results... and they weren't as good as I had hoped.

Apparently Delaney has an ASD - Atrial Septal Defect. I won't go into details on what it is mainly because I don't understand the mechanics of it all. Needless to say, I am worried. I'm a mom. I'm a mom with a new baby and hormones that are out of control. Thankfully my pediatrician and my dear husband don't seem to be too worried. But the word "defect" in reference to my sweet baby's heart causes me to worry.

We are being referred to a pediatric cardiologist up at OHSU for further consultation. We'll find out more Monday.

Until then, I worry.

And I hold my baby.

And I kiss her.

And I pray.